Issue 40: Winter 2018

From dadi’s home

Burned toes on scalding tea when you carried tray laden with chai, cinnamon scents left to boil on stove.

Burned toes on scalding tea when you carried
tray laden with chai, cinnamon scents left
to boil on stove. Sleep surrounded

by stuffed toys kept at twenty: dog bigger than
a baby, three (sewn) sock monkeys, (beanie) bear,
bear (in a graduation cap), (regifted) snow leopard,
(sewn) bird. Blown out candle smoke carries you

to dreams when the light goes out. Find food
(dadi’s haleem) in freezer amidst ice-cream
and sandwiches. Eat with (store-bought)
garlic naan: maa ka haath ka khana ki tarha  

kisi aur cheez nahi hai.[1] Mehndi cone propped
against (half-used) pens. Dadi calls and says,
khabi dadi ki yaad karo, kabhi ghar ki yaad karo.[2]

 

 

[1] there’s nothing like food cooked by your mother’s hand.

[2] remember dadi (paternal grandmother) sometimes, remember home sometimes.

 

About the author

Manahil Bandukwala is a writer and visual artist based in Ottawa and Mississauga, Ontario. She is the author of Heliotropia (Brick Books, 2024) and MONUMENT (Brick Books, 2022), which was shortlisted for the 2023 Gerald Lampert Award, and was selected as a Writer’s Trust of Canada Rising Star in 2023. See her work at manahilbandukwala.com.